You are the most remarkable women I will ever meet in my life. You stand your ground even when your legs are shaky. You paint on a smile knowing its secretly forced. Continuing to give like a never ending fountain of giveness. Your heart lays quiet and full of love and comfort. Your soul remains untainted and clear as un-shattered glass. Your outlook on life is so much bigger then you really are, and in the same contradiction you yourself are bigger then life really is.
The sound of your sweet voice when you answer your telephone. Giving the person on the other end a sweet soothing smiling "hello". The possibility of being the only person on this earth who has peered into my soul. Forgiving anything I have ever done and loving me just that much for no judgment to ever be passed against me.
Who goes through life with out passing a single judgment on a single soul? Only you, the greatest of Christians could not do so. You are more rare then anything on this planet earth, or universe.
The burdens you have raptured, and the demons you have battled with in the silence of your quiet, undamaged and complete pure soul.
Never perceiving the word hate into your vocabulary, as I begin to grasp the meaning behind your strength, and your courage that holds you in sync. Never viewing the past as a weakling branch. Embracing the powerless and uncertainty of the forth coming future. With time dwindling quickly and the memories flooding profusely, God wanted you to have this one last dance.
With arms wide open and tears held back, I need to shriek out, that I, Grandma am your biggest fan of your most unspoken gift. This is the precious gift that you have bestowed onto me, and will forever be engraved deep into my soul.
You are my Grandma and without a doubt the best there is. You have truly been the best friend I have ever had in my entire life. The scared and unwariness of the innocent secrets shared between you and I, and the unselfish stolen moments will greatly be treasured for the rest of my living life. The beautiful smile of an unruly women, is just what a granddaughter could only hope for.
The feeling of thoughts running desperately through my conviction of such things as: "did I love her enough, did I hug her enough, did I do all the things she wanted me to do in life". The thought of disappointment that I may have caused shatters my heart with an intensely burning pain. I only hope and pray that you will be proud of my choices I have made, and the barrels I have jumped over for success in this factor we call life.
"So smart, beautiful, witty and kind. The kind of legacy meant to leave behind" (Tanya RaeLee)
The life I live today has greatly been influenced by this wonderful human being that roams the earth today. For tomorrow to understand the significance of stored away fears.
"With the many different roads I have wandered down and many steep hills I had to climb, yet here you are still remaining at my side." (Tanya RaeLee)
"You are a hero to me, the kind of Grandma I one day hop to be" (Tanya RaeLee)
I love you Grandma with all my heart and soul......
PS- The sayings with Tanya RaeLee behind will soon be in a song I will write for you.....
