I have seen some moments that may make you think wow how does she deal with that? Sometimes life throws curve balls as they say, that makes you unsure of how you may be able to swing and actually hit the ball rather then swing and strike out. I myself have stuck out many many times. However the difference is I get right back up to that plate and swing again, and eventually I hit the ball in the right direction significantly above evils head. Life is not meant to be easy. We need curvatures and hills that must be climbed. We need that everyday challenge, if we didn't have these things, everyday would be a drastically boring world to live in. Some may think I gave up on my dream to write and sing, but many do not know it has always been a dream to deliver babies. I did not give up on my dream to write and sing. I continue to do this everyday, I work on new things and write more then anyone could imagine! I may be rather good at it, and passionate about it but dealing with mean and rude record execs just did not fit in my dream. I would rather do things on my own terms preferably, then to have someone breath, criticize and ridicule not only my style but my presence. Since the day my first son was born I have dreamt about delivering babies. I followed one dream for awhile and had a blast and then took a turn to follow another. I am on a different path and I am loving every minute of it. I am learning things about myself that I never thought about before. Things that prove the overwhelming strength of  "just me" is much larger then anything possible in the world. We are all stronger, brighter, smarter, and full of light if we just see the world in the way it was meant to be seen. I have seriously seen the world in a whole new imaginary picture. It is nothing like what you think. Everything is truly not as it seems and you would be surprised to know the things I now know and cam see through my eyes how I see them.
Realizing the absolute best day can sometimes become your worst nightmare, is only just the tip of the ice burg. When you look to yourself for answers you will never find what your looking for. God meant for this world to be an adventure of learning and exploring, good and bad, its when you fall and don't get back up that will defeat the soul......

Where my Heart Is

Its crazy to think I have lived many lives within this life. That's what it feels to me. I am always changing and challenging myself to do something bigger or better. Sometimes its just the fact of trying something new just to defeat the board em. My husband also shares this Passion with me, which is probably why we still are very much in love and together. Being able to get out of "ruts" and try new things is certainly a relationship booster.

As I sit at work and listen to Country Music I am brought back to my Tennessee days and oh how I miss them. My heart is there and wants to be there. I loved the sound of the rain when it hit my windshield because it was never a light rain, it was always vast and intense. I loved to go downtown and see famous people. Knowing they are around at any given moment was facinating and spellbinding. Something about being in the city brings a rush of alluring excitement. I remember the drives on back roads or just down to walmart. The traffic and the waves of people at the malls. The overall southern friendliness was over exhalting and  memorizing. The friends I made, and I certainly met some fun and entertaining ones! HA. Some that taught me life lessons and don't even know it. But the fact of moving away from the only home you ever known to an unknown foreign land was just blissfully electrifying, and that life was just amazing good and bad.

We are about to track a new journey. I am getting that bug of excitement once again as we finally have settled down and got on track of our lives again. Sometimes being caught up in the moment can take a very long moment before you get squared away again! Life is full of surprises and I love them. If my life was not filled with these inspiring moments I would certainly be board and maybe not be as successful as I am in many things I do today. Always challenging myself is what I look forward to everyday God allows me to open my eyes again from sleep.

I miss singing and writing and doing all those things I did in Tennessee. But I know that God has much bigger plans for me and I must follow what he wants me to do. I created a break in the road that taught me how to rebuild it so I may drive across again. This is what life is all about. I look forward to building more roads that have breaks in them and learning what my life is all about in the mean time. I feel like I completely get life now, and understand what it is we are here for. We are here to learn and weave in and out of obstacles that are put in our way for learning. Becoming a strong human and indulging in this factor we call life.


We will move back someday, I feel it, and want it. Its where my heart is.......

What Are We Doing Here?

There is so much on my mind. What to write about and narrow it down?  
Greatness comes from your heart. I believe that there is a God and I believe in Jesus. Are we so different!  Many religions are so quick to tear others apart Or judge you for what you have or not believed in. Man I have done some amazing things in my life and there are many things that I failed at and came back to over ride my failed position just to rise to the top. We are not here on earth to understand where we came from but rather understand what it is we are here for! There are obstacles that are put into motion for us to figure out and get through. We need not try and figure out why or who put us here but figure out the when and where to go in this world.  Only God can answer these questions and he will if he wants you to know. Generally we come from heaven with a quest. A quest to learn things about ourselves and journeys to travel. Some things are hurtful joyful or painless. But whatever the reason only you can figure it out. God is here to help us follow the path he chose for us. We each have a spirit guide who is chosen before we make our way to earth.  They battle for is to stay on the path and obstacles chosen for us.  In the notion of angles they are Gods helpers   You want a prayer answered it is the angel who fights to get it answered.  Maybe he wanted to teach us about pain and the hurt that comes from losing a loved one so early in life. Maybe he wanted you to go down the dark road only to teach you how strong you really can be if you allow yourself to know it.