I have seen some moments that may make you think wow how does she deal with that? Sometimes life throws curve balls as they say, that makes you unsure of how you may be able to swing and actually hit the ball rather then swing and strike out. I myself have stuck out many many times. However the difference is I get right back up to that plate and swing again, and eventually I hit the ball in the right direction significantly above evils head. Life is not meant to be easy. We need curvatures and hills that must be climbed. We need that everyday challenge, if we didn't have these things, everyday would be a drastically boring world to live in. Some may think I gave up on my dream to write and sing, but many do not know it has always been a dream to deliver babies. I did not give up on my dream to write and sing. I continue to do this everyday, I work on new things and write more then anyone could imagine! I may be rather good at it, and passionate about it but dealing with mean and rude record execs just did not fit in my dream. I would rather do things on my own terms preferably, then to have someone breath, criticize and ridicule not only my style but my presence. Since the day my first son was born I have dreamt about delivering babies. I followed one dream for awhile and had a blast and then took a turn to follow another. I am on a different path and I am loving every minute of it. I am learning things about myself that I never thought about before. Things that prove the overwhelming strength of  "just me" is much larger then anything possible in the world. We are all stronger, brighter, smarter, and full of light if we just see the world in the way it was meant to be seen. I have seriously seen the world in a whole new imaginary picture. It is nothing like what you think. Everything is truly not as it seems and you would be surprised to know the things I now know and cam see through my eyes how I see them.
Realizing the absolute best day can sometimes become your worst nightmare, is only just the tip of the ice burg. When you look to yourself for answers you will never find what your looking for. God meant for this world to be an adventure of learning and exploring, good and bad, its when you fall and don't get back up that will defeat the soul......